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You know when something is hanging over your head and then you just can't get anything else done because you are too busy avoiding that one thing that you don't want to do at all?

My last online class. It's sucking the life out of me. One class. Three assignments left. Three weeks-- with the honest intention to knock two of those assignments out by the end of this week.

I have lists of things to do, things that will actually bring me closer to the career and lifestyle that I would love so much to be successful in.

While dragging my feet right now, I came upon this track, recorded live when my old band Foreign Loren played on KCSB in 2008 with Kapiano. To close, we covered the song "Hallelujah" -- I believe my bandmate Aaron played ukulele, I sang lead, and everyone sang the chorus together. We had never done it together before, we just went for it with everything we had in the early morning hours. It was glorious. To this day, it is one of the most precious moments of my life. By the end of the song, everyone from the back of the studio had come to the front to listen, just a window of glass dividing us.



I felt alive in that moment, and I believe that is the purpose of creation-- at least a part of it: to make people feel alive. To share a bit of brilliance and bliss with another. To use the gifts that only you can offer, to create the things that only you can create, and give them away.

My voice may be comparable to others (I've heard Regina Spektor, Morrissey... though most often I just get "unique," which is fine. Hopefully unique in a good way?) and my words may echo similar sentiments to others, but my voice-- written, spoken, and sung-- is my own. My story, in all its pain and sweetness, is my own. The way I interpret, form, and weave those ideas and experiences is my very, very own. And I find such pleasure in these things.

Life, I love you.

Online class, you need to be done already.